Only 36 pilgrims can go on a walk to Emmaus at a given time.
The names of the pilgrims are on the website so they can be prayed over. There
were only a few open slots left and I still hadn’t found a sponsor. What else
could I try besides praying and pleading? I was experiencing peace about it and
new that God would direct me, but I really was clueless as how to go about
this.
Suddenly it occurred to me to reach out to the Emmaus
community itself. I sent an email pleading my case. “I do not simply want to
go, I have to go,” I told them. I do
not remember what all I said, but it was short and straight to the point. Then
began the waiting game.
I continued to pour my heart out to God and ask that my
friends do the same so that I could make this walk. “Father, I know that the
details are in your hands. I also know that I have such a yearning to be on
this walk that could only come from You. So I pray that You would continue to
prepare my heart for this experience. Expose all that is not of You that I hold
in my heart and help me to release it all to You.”
Let me tell you something. When you ask God to “show you the
ugly” and mean it, He will. I was
almost amused at the rate He was showing me things. Not to mention they seemed
so obvious. What on earth had I been
thinking holding on to all of that?
It wasn’t even painful to have these things pointed out to me or to let them go. It was such a relief! (I have had some painful show-and-let-go experiences with God in the past, but that’s another blog!) Little did I know these were just the little things. He was actually preparing my heart just as I had asked Him to do. While I was busy letting go, He was busy making more room for Jesus.
It wasn’t even painful to have these things pointed out to me or to let them go. It was such a relief! (I have had some painful show-and-let-go experiences with God in the past, but that’s another blog!) Little did I know these were just the little things. He was actually preparing my heart just as I had asked Him to do. While I was busy letting go, He was busy making more room for Jesus.
The empty spots on the pilgrim list were quickly filling up.
I hadn’t given up hope but I was starting to revert to my very impatient self
and getting frustrated. Out of the blue I received a phone call from a woman I
had never met. I had such an excited yet peaceful feeling come over me as I listened
to what she had to say.
Simply put, she explained that she heard about me through an
email. At the time I assumed it was a friend of a friend that had emailed her
about my plight. She agreed to be my sponsor and we made a lunch date for the
following day. Only 2 empty slots left, but I am praising Jesus. I had a
sponsor!
As I am waiting for Betty and Kayla (Co-sponsors it turns
out) I’m thinking, “Man I am finally going to get some answers!” I was
incredibly excited and equally incredibly wrong.
I first asked who had emailed
her about me. She clarified that she heard about me from the email I had
through the Emmaus website! Betty explained that they never had received such a
request so at the same time we were meeting, the leadership of Emmaus was
meeting and praying just for me one state over! ( I live in Texas, High Plains
Emmaus is based in New Mexico.)
People. People in another state. People in another state that
I don’t even know are praying for me. God is so good and so faithful. I cannot
help but cry. Praise God! I am crying, but these tears are not hopeless tears.
And the answers to my other questions? Yep. You guessed it. I got a “you
are going to love it” and those big goofy smiles again. Fine. Great. (With less
sarcasm this time.) I did almost ask, “Can you at least tell me if they have live
chickens there?” Oh well. I really don’t care. I have 2 sponsors and I am going
on a walk to Emmaus!
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